Dear my precious blog,
I just want to say,
my Wednesday has been really really really lovely so far.
I’m daydreaming.
And I have a present for you.
A playlist for daydreamers.
For you and me.
Hugs.
PS: A daydream is a visionary fantasy experienced while awake, especially one of happy, pleasant thoughts, hopes or ambitions.
PPS: If you do not have Spotify:
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Today I woke up feeling funny in my head.
It feels light. But it also feels… powerful. Strange. But good. Really good feeling.
And I have the urge to write about it and tell it to the world. To you.
Yesterday I stayed up late because I wanted to finish an oil painting – a study of a self-portrait by Van Gogh. It is one of the blue ones with really nice pink and yellow shades all over. I hesitated before I started because I did not think I could paint that well.
And then somewhere amidst the brush strokes, I felt my hand took over. I stopped thinking. I stopped planning the space for lighter and darker colours on my palette. I just painted.
I felt effortlessly in control.
I felt alive… and excited.
I forgot the time and I forgot to eat my dinner.
At 2 a.m. it was done. I took a step back and stared at my work. Van Gogh looked younger than he did but I felt a sense of accomplishment. I was proud, amazed, and still very excited. And my left hand was sore from holding the palette.
Reluctantly, I left my “studio” and went to bed. My eyes were tired and my body was exhausted but I had never felt so awake. I thought about creating so many other paintings and crafty things that I had write it down.
Then I fell asleep somehow.
Today I woke up feeling funny in my head.
I feel alive.
*jumps up and down*
Here is the other reason to jump up and down.
I found a new music I love:
... a cold gray day in helsingborg needs a happy song. Oh, well in 5 years time We could be walking around a zoo With the sun shining down over me and you And there will be love in the bodies of the elephants too And I'll put my hands over your eyes but you'll peek through And there will be sun sun sun all over our bodies And sun sun sun all down our necks And there will be sun sun sun all over our faces And sun sun sun so what the heck 'Cos I'll be laughing at all your silly little jokes And we'll be laughing about how we used to smoke All those stupid little cigarettes and drink stupid wine 'Cos it's what we needed to have a good time But it was fun fun fun when we were drinking And it was fun fun fun when we were drunk And it was fun fun fun when we were laughing And it was fun fun fun, oh it was fun Oh, well I'll look at you and say it's the happiest I've ever been And I'll say I know how you feel, I have to be James Dean And she'll say yeah well I feel oh pretty happy too And I'm always pretty happy when I'm just kicking back with you And it'll be love love love all through our bodies And it'll be love love love all through our minds And it'll be love love love all over her face And love love love all over mine And though really all these moments are just in my head I'll be thinking about them as I'm lying in bed And I know that really it might not even come true But in my mind I'm having a pretty good time with you Oh in 5 years time I might not know you In 5 years time we might not speak In 5 years time we might not get along In 5 years time you might just prove me wrong Oh there will be love love love wherever you go*hugs*
